compie's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- i am a rock yeeah. So this weekend was nice. on thursday we all went to the diner. I got to hang out with Aaron, which was exciting because I had hardly seen him around our building and the weekend before he was really sweet and helped me get some of my extra stuff to my room. Yeah..and really cute too. But anyway, so the lot of us went to the diner, and I got to know him better, which only made me like him more. He's actually ayear older but took a year off of school to live in israel in this commune with socialist leanings, and taught israeli children english. The next day, friday, a bunch of us went to see this one kid's band play at this small house nearby. It was packed and sweaty, but pretty rockin. Aaron showed up almost as the concert was over. We had packed into this one girls car to get there but half the people took the mta back so there was room for him, except we were like...someone may have to sit on your lap (probably me cause i'm the smallest). but it actually wasnt crowed at all when we got in the car, and he looked at me and started complaining about no one sitting on his lap..hahaha. but anyway, so yeah, I think he liked me. He came back and hung out with me and meg until he fell asleep on her floor for 20 minutes, woke up and realized he was tired and went to bed. The next day a lot of people were at the football game and he came by my room wanting to do something, so we watched a couple of my dvds together. He kept on kicking other people out of the lounge so we could watch it alone together, it was quite cute. We didn't do anything, but yeah, it was nice. That night I got all dressed up and a bunch of us went to this club in DC where they were having brit pop night, but aaron didn't want to go cause its "not his scene". But, he said that I looked "very pretty this evening" or something like that. So yeah. And then yesterday we hung out a little bit until after this special scholars thing we all have. I was going to ask him if he wanted to come to the diner but he dissapeared. Later when I brought my food into the lounge I saw him in there, and he said he was tired of diner food. So this girl, we'll call her Kittie, she had two hot pockets and was making them both, one for her and one for him. He apparently just wanted to eat something different. But then she kept touching him and asked him to eat outside with her, and then they sat outside and had a "deep" conversation about drugs and religion, while she kept on rubbing her head against him and saying how great he smells (yeah...well...she's a slut. like I knew this before this incident.) and blah blah blah. Me and my friend Judith were out there talking to trying to see what the hell was going on with them. I'm not sure if he was talking to her to be nice or because he actually wanted to talk to her. But anyway, so after that she ordered chinese food for him and some other boys (yeah.....) and they watched donnie darko in the lounge. Aaron kind of gave me this guilty look, but I don't know if he was really sorry or if its all in my head. She was of course all over him, and started resting her head in his lap by mid movie (mind you they only started talking to each other in any way at around 7 pm that day...and it was about 10 by then). I couldn't take this anymore so I just left. I went up to talk to meg thinking she'd make me feel better, but all she did was say "oh well looks like youre out of the picture then"...So yeah. I left her a nice fuck you and left. By the way, I had also gotten sick from the diner food that day. And also I was on my period, so it didn't make anything feel any better. So anyway, then I think I went to the bathroom and threw up. Probably a mix of psychosomaticism and really being sick cause of diner food. So yeah. Then I talked to judith and she cheered me up. We went down to the lounge to study, and Aaron had left his laptop and everything in there. So just to be mischeivious we hid it in a sort of obvious place. He came in and started saying pretty maliciously how FUCKING hilarious it was, and then complained that our hiding places werent creative enough, while kittie agreed with everything he said while she jumped on his back and squeeled like a dying piglet. Anyway. So yeah. I was pissed. He didn't find one of his cords though, so ten minutes later he came in and was like "I dont need this now amy" and blah blah blah. Actually, he sounded really threatening, and his had this kind of abusive husband type look in his eye. I didn't know whether to be frightened or flattered....but I think it was more frightening/strange then anything else. He couldn't find it, so i walked over to where I put it and gave it to him, all the while seriously worrying about him trying to hurt me, while he was walking behind me. He then just stood there and stared at me for about 3 minutes. Asking what we were doing and what not..more like demanding to know. anyway, so yeah. I really hope he was drunk by that time, because he has never acted like that before. He talks to me about zen counting and tai chi lessons, and took water bottles out of the trashcan to put into the recycling bin in our dorm. He's never come across to me as an abusive, slut loving bastard. So I dunno. It's really a let down. I dunno, I guess we'll see what happens today. I also can't beleive how callous meg can be sometimes. I mean she's cool and she's my friend and all, but when you really feel bad about something, its really not the right time to get made fun of. Especially because I was sick as well. So today I had a quiz at 9. I woke up, took a shower and threw up again and...yeah. The quiz was actually really really easy, so that was good, and I have no more class today so I think i'm going to take a nap. I dont know. I feel pretty shitty right now. I can't beleive Aaron. I can't beleive Meg. I can't beleive that girl Kittie could be that slutty. woooo colllege life. I don't love anyone. 10:43 a.m. - 2005-09-13 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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