compie's Diaryland Diary

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im a funny gal

dancingtubesock: no calling seth for a week
dancingtubesock: thats my plan
dancingtubesock: if i can survive it without freaking out, then maybe two
abitdippy: guns are chessier I think. I mean come on! and in real life I wouldn't blow him a kiss, I would plant one on his gorgeous lips.
abitdippy: blowing kisses is like a joke
dancingtubesock: i know
dancingtubesock: jake...
dancingtubesock: EW
dancingtubesock: those were the last kisses blown to me i think
abitdippy: ha ha ha
abitdippy: ha ha ha!!
abitdippy: poor amy
dancingtubesock: ...
dancingtubesock: this is beginning to hurt
dancingtubesock: this is beginning to get serious
dancingtubesock: it used to be a game
dancingtubesock: now its a cryin shame
dancingtubesock: cause you don't want to play around no more
dancingtubesock: sometimes i push too hard
dancingtubesock: sometimes you fall and skin your knee
dancingtubesock: i never meant to do
dancingtubesock: all that ive done to you
dancingtubesock: please baby, say its not too late
dancingtubesock: to get you
dancingtubesock: you know this is breaking me up
dancingtubesock: you think im some kind of freak
dancingtubesock: but if youd come back to me
dancingtubesock: then you would truly see
dancingtubesock: im not just foolin around...
dancingtubesock: ha seth needs to sing that to me
dancingtubesock: this whole cd is like seth and me
dancingtubesock: well sort of
abitdippy: wow
dancingtubesock: which is actually kind of funny cause its the first thing we ever listened to in his car
dancingtubesock: wow?
dancingtubesock: well not the whooolle cd, but like a lot of it
dancingtubesock: is directly applyable
abitdippy: if he sang that to you: wow
dancingtubesock: well he didnt
dancingtubesock: he's only sung a few songs to me
dancingtubesock: haha
dancingtubesock: "when a man loves a woman", "stayin alive", and "the sun will come out tomorrow"
dancingtubesock: god everything today reminded me of him
dancingtubesock: i was reading something about how william burroughs wrote tarzan of the apes..
dancingtubesock: well burroughs is seths last name and when we compared hands on dave's couch he whispered in my ear about how he felt like tarzan
dancingtubesock: blaaah
dancingtubesock: and then in psychology we had to answer the question:
dancingtubesock: "think of the last intimate relationship you were in or have witnessed, what characteristics does this relationship exhibit?"
dancingtubesock: something like that
dancingtubesock: then in stats
abitdippy: ha ha ha
dancingtubesock: we learned about some probability equation and it was expressed as "n chooses k"
dancingtubesock: and i kept thinking
dancingtubesock: s chooses k
dancingtubesock: and then at lunch
dancingtubesock: there was a picture of kim on the bullitin near the lunch line
dancingtubesock: and this kid phil that seth sort of knows pointed to the picture and was like
dancingtubesock: "seth has a big crush on that girl"
abitdippy: ha ha ha
abitdippy: ooh
dancingtubesock: seth isnt really friends with him at all
dancingtubesock: he probably just knows that they like each other..but i wouldnt call it a "big crush"
dancingtubesock: i dont know when i thikn big crush i think like
dancingtubesock: being completely obsessed with someone who doesnt know you exist
dancingtubesock: and kim and seth and pretty far away from anything like that
dancingtubesock: if anyone is, kims probably more obsessed then seth
dancingtubesock: but anyways
dancingtubesock: he's stupid.
dancingtubesock: and then in anatomy we learned the muscles in the head
dancingtubesock: including one muscle commonly called "the kissing muscle"
dancingtubesock: sigh...
dancingtubesock: sometimes it seems that i live under a perpetual raincloud
abitdippy: wow..if you don't write an entry about it I'll sue

yeah. so i didnt feel like rewriting it, so here's the conversation.

So the thing with seth and kim is somewhat cleared up, which is good i guess. I talked to him yesterday on the phone in an attempt to straighten things out, but nothing was accomplished really. he just told me that he liked me and he still likes me, but its more of a "crush" thing, and with kim, shes "the only for him" or something. boo. well we also agreed that maybe when we get to know each other as friends better then it would be a lot easier for anything romantically related to happen, and i can see both os us lending ourselves to such tendencies, given our predispositions. ha. sorry. too many big words. But i mean, theres still hope i guess. Right now im just so tired of this whole thing, and i want everything to be normal again.

pinkerton is such a good album. for some reason like every other song becomes appliable to my whole seth situation. sigh. okay im done.

I finally sent out my college park stuff today. what a big burden off my shoulders.

8:38 p.m. - 2004-11-30

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