compie's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- the way its supposed to be. heyy everrybody! haha..like..no one. aaah, well here comes the light at the end of the tunnel. Memorial Day. The first official day of summer. But look outside. its like a friggin rainforest. aah, yes. Ive decided that i actually do like western. I mean, some of the kids at least. Im glad i came here and not carver. I mean, next year will probably suck, because most of the reaaally cool kids are seniors and are leaving. Its sad. Cause a lot of them are really really cool. The juniors this year, some of them are cool, and then some of the others just suck. Like..i dunno. The seniors this year were friends with the seniors last year, and the seniors before that. But, the juniors really arnt friends with many seniors. So, next year, they wont really fill their shoes right. haha. i dunno. Ill just miss em. Heidis flamingbatton twirling, Carmens lead in all the musicals, Brandon's articles and movies, Chase's general friendliness, Rahil's tennis skills, Camille's tennis skills, seein Keen and irrationally admiring from far away, even though hes not really that cute..but i think he is for some reason..annnd..yeah. I'll just miss a lot of em. Not just because i know them, because half those people i hardly know..but just because theyve been around for so long, and now theyre leaving. its just..eck. I mean..next year ill be a junior. Last year when i was a frosh, THEY were juniors. And theyre exactly the same as they were then. Thaaat scares me. I mean, that im gonna be in the same state of mind that i am right now when i graduate. I really hope not, because then i wont be ready at all. Well, on the bright side i still have half of my high school life left. And im glad i actually like some people now. Even though half those people that i decided i liked are leaving..But hey, at least i didnt realize i liked them in retrospect. I've decided that im gonna try to not act on any of my interests anymore. I mean, as far as guys go. Just because it seems that somethine always fucks up things like that, and maybe its me. So if i wait long enough, something will happen. with someone i like. Maybe.. "so thats ive how i learned the lesson, that everyones alone, and your eyes must do som rainin, if youre ever gonna grow..and when cryin dont help you cant compose yourself its best to compose a poem..and honest verse of longing of a simple song of hope. So, now im singin baby don't worry, cause now ive got your back, and when you feel like cryin, im gonna try to make you laugh. And if i cant, if it just hurts too bad, then we'll just wait for it to pass..And i will keep you company, for those days so long and black. And we'll keep working on the problems, we know we'll never solve..of love's uneven remainders our lives are a fraction of a whole, but if the world could remain within a frame like a painting on a wall, then I think we'd see the beauty then, we'd stand staring in awe..at our still lives posed, like a bowl of oranges, like a story told, by the fault lines and the soul" Man, thats exactly how i feel right now for some reason. All sad like but still happy. I love Bright Eyes. So, yeah..Class of 2003, ill really miss you guys, even though i hardly know most of you. None of them will read this, so thats okay. man ohh man. I went to amandas today. It was fun, we just hung out, watched part of the evil dead and one of brandons movies. well, actually it was one of drew's movies. this kid that was a senior last year who had a really nice car and was kind of hot. haha. yeah..It was hilarious though. And it made me realize how much im gonna miss the seniors this year. Yeah..so raheel was with us, or rather with her. It wasnt thaat annoying, except right before i left. But it wasnt as bad as I thought it would be. It just sucks that ii dont have someone and now he has my best friend. ppsh. yeah, but ill get over that..eventually. so..yeah, hmm. Brandon invited me to his grad party. and so did their mom. hehe. i dont know what ot get him though...hmm.. yeep. nothin else to say...no idea what im doin tomorrow for memorial day.. yeaaah. okay, im done. for now. 7:19 p.m. - 2003-05-25 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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