compie's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- blllluurrrb. blaaah. Im tired. I usually dont write an entry when im tired, but for some reason today i feel the need. today was loong. and i should be asleep..but.. yeah. i was at my dads in the morning, and we went to dr. withers' for his 86th birthday. hehe. it was fun, sorta. Sarina was there. She is actually enjoying high school. Last year i died. I mean, i got used to it eventually, but..i died. I came home and lacey called me. And then we got on three way with jesse and sean. haha.then they hung up on us, but i was glad because all they did was sit there and play micheal jackson er some shit. then me and lacey called matt. hahaha. it was pretty funny cause all he did was play beavis and butthead shit then was like "okay im gonna go now". i dunno. I like matt still but i dont know. His whole "i hate wiggers/people that try to hard to be different/preps" i pretty much agree with i guess, but hes a hypocrite when it comes to girls. hell turn around and say how preppy kristina or wigger-dumbass alicia are really hot or something. thats just dumb. I mean, there are plenty of guys who are attractive at my school, but most of them lose their attractiveness when you find out more about them. Im not saying that kristina is a bad person or anything, but if you go and say you hate preps, and then you think some preppy guy is hot or osmething, it defeats the purpose. He was in my group in english but he didnt really want to do anything..I think maybe he was taking advantage of the fact that he knows he has me wrapped around his little finger and can make me do everything for him. Anyways, he asked me if i could work with him in this history thing we're doing, and i told him he could unless he decided to talk about hot girls or pantera or something dumb. I think this is where maybe he realized that him going on about girls made me feel bad, he had this look on his face, trying to take back everything he said in some kind of hurt surprise. well, i got him back by kicking him out of our group when alicia and kelly and meghan asked me and didnt want him in our group. I dont really like alicia, kelly can be alright sometimes, but i didnt want it to be just like..matt and i and some random kids i dont know at all, soo.. yeah. sorry im writing all this. its pretty trivial and im not even making it sound good. im just tired. earlier sara and i got into a fight over music. she said she saw jeff at one of the shows. Now, it annoys me that not just jeff, but these kids that are so..i dont know how to say it..homophobic, racsist, stupid, etc etc. come to shows. I mean, i dont want to sound supremly exclusive or anything, but the music used to be about the alienated, kind of to get away from everything and have something that you felt was part of you. When you saw someone that liked the same thing, it felt like you had something in common with them, more in common then 2 girls that both like nsync or something. but now, the scene has turned into some fashion. Its oh so punk now, to wear the spikes, and the shirts that say "witty" things on it, to dye your different colors..blah blah.. now im not saying every kid with spikes, purple hair, and a shirt that says something random is a poser, but they cant say that they dont care about how they look. they obviously do because theyre putting so much into it. those shirts from hot topic cost a lot of money. so does the manic panic, and the shiny spikes. Im not saying you shouldnt wear it or whatever, i mean, wear what you like. But if you dye your hair, it shouldnt be because you want to look unique or so different or anything, it should be because you like that hair color. "punk" has become just another fashion; and people arnt understanding that in trying so hard to stand out in the crowed ends up them all looking the same. Punk seems to be going the way of alternative in the early 90's. The same kids have put away their glitter and buying spikes. i prefer my people as people..not as punks, or preps, or wiggers, or anything else thats dumb. saras argument was that i should just let people be and live my life blah blah blah. of course thats all sound advice, but if anyone did that no one would ever have a problem with anything, if thats how things were then everyone would be happy all the time. right now, im just so sleepy/frustrated/blah everyone should read anne ghish from the JTHM series, its how half these kids are and its dumb. Im just pissed at people. and its really late at night. blah. 12:29 a.m. - 2002-09-16 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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