compie's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- neosporin works every time. everyone go see spider-man. today i feel oh so much better. Yuki told me how to make hard lemonade. I am considering trying it. that would be awesome brewing my own shit. My dad and i went to pizza hut, our waiter is a sophomore at my school. haha. damn i should get a summer job. anyways, we got a pinapple pepporoni pizza and stuff. Then we went to see spiderman. It was really good! The music is by Danny Elfman and Kirsten Dunst is an awesome actress and Tory Maguire is really hot. But no, besides all that it was still a good movie. The ending was a little..shall we say...dejavusioe. For some reason i had the urge to put 5 watches on my left wrist. I should walk down the street like this. people would think im crazy. or really high. or a genius. or maybe just a poser. mike gave me some great advice about matt.. "find out whether you really like him or not, because from what i'm hearing you seem to be more and more concerned with complications and almost letting it fail than actually persuing it, and i think it may just be because you want to like him more than you really do. now, if you really do like him quite a bit, then do something about it, but if you think i may be right then just fuck relationships altogether until one hits you. majority of relations will never work if they're being persued only for the sake of one. unless it actually really means something, don't go after it"..and also "let it happen. act casual." he said some other stuff too, but im glad someone out there is sort of understanding what im going through. i should talk to matt on monday and tell him that i know one of my friends told him, then apoligize for possibly fucking everything up..and tell him that i still want to be friends..at least for now i guess. And i want to tell him i got that song by laughing colors, war on drugs. its hilarious. and ask him how far hes in zelda now so i can envy him for getting through it so fast, and ask him if hes broken up my harddrive yet..but yknow..i dont know if he wants anything to do with me now. But, its probbaly not as big of a deal as im making it. He probably doesnt care and would just as soon get on with everything as i would. "but if things dont work out, i promise you that if it's nothing, in a year or two you'll hardly even remember this whole struggle for love""well, as someone who will soon be out of high school, let me tell you that high school is far too lame to let it be made worse by boys" " honestly, just let things happen. be yourself all the time, never change for anyone, and go for what you want" preach it, rev. mike. hehehehe. most of you probably dont get that...Anyways, im a little mellowed out about the whole situation...and hopefully i can take his advice on monday (well technichally tomorrow) and tell him how im sorry. 1:30 a.m. - 2002-06-02 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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